Back in the Dhak(a)

Hello all,
Yup I'm back in Dhaka. I feel more comfortable here for some reason. While out in the country side I felt more annoyed and trapped by people questioning me all the time. It was hard to deal with because I didn't really have the option I wanted: to explore as an observer and be left a lone whilst wearing my odd (for a foreigner) attire, Lungi, beard, and gift necklace. I could either stay in my room or be confronted by people in the streets.

I also made a friend that is starting an organization called The Beggars of Peace, however, it didn't really seem to be very well organized and he often complained about money problems. This also bothered me. But he did take me to some really interesting places where I got to hear really soothing Lalon (the famous spiritual folksinger) music and hangout with Lalon followers.

I was on a mission to find a Guru. A friend recommended this to me, but I don't think I found them in the end and instead got sick. However, I accept this as part of the lan and will keep my eyes and heart open for a Guru. Who knows when they will come to join me along my path.
Perhaps that's what this past mission was really about. Discovering deeper acceptance of negative thoughts. Hard (and unnecessary) to know for sure and we can't often understand the reasons why (or so I've recently read and tend to believe).

I still feel a little uneasy these days but I'm trying to accept those feelings just like "happy" feelings. Partly I think I'm still recovering from the antibiotics and maybe I'm just tired of traveling. Less motivation to learn about new cultures. However returning home sometimes feels scary too. Hmmm

I'm considering going to Chittagong for one last boat attempt before submitting to taking a plane.
Hope this message finds you at peace.
Peace and Presence,
Kelly