There go my plans, out the window again

Howdy hoe everybody,
I've been having some interesting times in Malaysia and Singapore. More people thinking I'm a terrorist or crack cocaine user/dealer and some other interesting people too.
I met another nice couch surfer in Kulai, outside of Johor Baru, and completed my first painting creation amongst lovely conversation. I MAY not be the worlds best painter, yet. Singapore did live up to some of the hype of highly organized and controlled. There were camera's in a lot of places. Pedestrians feared to cross the street on a red even if there were no cars coming because the CCTV would be watching. I met some interesting people there too.
Then my boat from Singapore to Hong Kong got canceled and for some reason I asked them if I could cancel my other boat (from Hong Kong to Canada) now that the "PACKAGE" had been "DISTURBED". I'm not really sure why I asked this and I assumed they would say NO sir the second boat is still on schedule. They didn't say that. They said, you can cancel it and get a full refund if you so desire.
Damnnnnn, I thought, That's interesting.
With the first boat being canceled I had some extra time because now I would have to take a PLANE to get to Hong Kong and so I decided to go visit my friend in Kulai. Her Parents don't quite like me. They are among the people that think I'm a terrorist/cocaine addict. Thanks to the long hair and beard. Only way, that we could think of, that I could be allowed back to see my friend is to volunteer to paint their new house and my friend had said that I did some schooling about painting, electrical and piping :p So that's been interesting. Her parents are quite strict and I feel like I'm a typical 15 year old , which I never really was as far as the parental treatment aspect goes, so this is interesting. Patience and Peace, learning deeper and deeper.
About the other boat (from Hong Kong to Canada), I had to make a decision.
I suspect that my decision was between two things:
1) What I wanted to do, what was logical, what I had promised others, what I felt safe doing,
where my responsibility lie
AND
2) My faith. Trust in the subtle signs and my feelings.

Basically I felt like I wasn't suppose to take that boat. That my path lead somewhere else.
It was a hard decision to make but in the end I have chosen faith.
I feel like I've transcended while in Malaysia to a new level and I felt like this was another test.
"How committed are you?", ask God, Allah, the Divine, insert name here.
So I'm sorry. To all those that I want to see and suspect would like to see me. To the responsibility I'm not coming to reclaim. For breaking my Word to some. I don't know if I'll be home for Christmas. I don't know much but I'm ready to find out. So I suspect.
I plan to do a Vipasana course (10 day meditation course www.dhamma.org) to try to get some clearity and direction and who knows what else. Currently I feel that I might go and meet a friend that just randomly let me know she is in Thailand and/or make my way to Seria from some signs I've received. But it's all up in the air now.
I'll try to let you know when something settles down here.
I hope you are all calm and accepting this moment.
I love you or am at least trying to,
Kelly